Post 10 - Orbs...

In my quiet time this morning, I wanted to sit with my Grandma's photo and the one photo of my Mum, my daughter and me taken in March 1998 - all four generations together.

As I sat, studying our faces, looking for any family resemblance, I noticed the large orb to the left of the photo...

Now, I 'know' that orbs on photos are essentially light bouncing off dust on the lens, but I also 'know' they can mean something, and the colour and size are important.

So I Googled some sites about orbs, and found that a peach  coloured orb represents 'an ability to comfort'...

I don't claim to really know why there is a large orb on this photo, but I do sense it is important - given the importance of the photo.

I am still waiting for my soul's purpose to reveal itself, but I know it has something to do with being a mother, and healing the deep hurts of both my childhood and my mother's...

the fact my mother's mother died on her 10th birthday...
the fact I was breech born...
the fact my mother and I had a very difficult relationship up to her death 13 years ago...
the fact I had a hard time keeping babies (I had 4 miscarriages and one stillbirth [our daughter Connie born August 1993]), until doctors realized what was wrong...
the fact that while our son is deeply precious to us, I just knew our family, and myself, would not be complete until I had a daughter...

I sense something is coming together as I sit with these photos, and absorb the strong female presence of several generations, and Mary Magdalene, and feel the strange comfort of that large peachy orb...